After excruciating days and  hours of gall bladder attacks during early labor at home, I loved the contractions but could not endure the gall bladder pain and sleeplessness anymore and was unable to really eat or drink. I checked into Swedish Hospital to try and get pain meds for the attacks and eventually was admitted to labor and delivery. A  combo of pain management and my doula’s massage stopped the gall bladder attack (at least for a while now but there is a large stone blocking a duct now and threat of Pancreatitis). The doctors really want to get this baby out so we did some minor induction techniques. I kept contracting strongly and doing well with it but as of this morning though my cervix is 90 percent effaced, my cervix won’t dilate more than 2cm. Though terrifying to me, I am basically being told the baby needs to come out before another attack comes on and I need the drug Pitocin to get harder contractions to make my cervix dilate more. So we’re starting it mildly and you likely won’t hear from me until there is somehow a baby Iris produced from my body. Please do not call to check in on the birth status. I have great support and facebook will be updated and calls made when Iris is born.

feelings: confusion, sadness, wanting the baby out…